Meals

Several people have asked how they can help us or if we need meals, etc. One of the ministries at our church called yesterday and they set up a Meal Baby site for us. If you are interested, you can go on and sign up for a day to bring a meal or purchase restaurant gift cards, etc. We have had so many people ask and this is a great way to keep everything organized so we don't end up with 3 meals on the same day and then nothing for 2 weeks or whatever. Anyway, they told me to share the link with anyone so I figured here was the best place to do it.

http://mealbaby.com/viewregistry/512650

Well, 2 weeks ago today my life went into a tailspin. It doesn't seem like it's been that long, so I guess that's a good sign that time seems to be going by pretty quickly. I am missing my boys like crazy but we have skyped them a few times and they are having a great time. Brayden is absolutely loving camp and all of the fun things he has been doing, and Cameron is loving playing with his cousin Bailee (they are only 6 months apart).
I know I mentioned that I was going to continue to work from home at least part time, but after researching it more it just isn't going to work out, so I am filing for disability.
I wish I had something more exciting to update but there isn't much going on right now :) I am trying to convince Rubin to buy me new couches. Now that I'm spending so much time on this one it's getting on my nerves more than it ever did and I think it would make a great basement couch, so wish me luck with that!! I have been watching way too much HGTV and am making a list of projects I want to tackle once I'm allowed to get up (although then I'll have 3 kids including a newborn so it's not like I'll have time or energy to do any of them).
Okay I guess those are all of my random updates for now. Thank you all for the prayers - keep them coming and I'll keep him cooking :)

26 Weeks

Today I am 26 weeks along - another week under my belt and another week that Carter is getting bigger and stronger!! I have been home from the hospital for a full week now, and so far things have been good, but last week my mom and the boys were still here to keep me company. Yesterday morning my parents left with the boys and I cried like a baby as they drove off. I don't know why - I'm excited for them to get to spend this time and am thankful for my parents taking them. Rubin and I had even talked about when they would be old enough to send them down there for a week or so in the summers. It was just hard to see them go. I think we have decided that they will probably be gone for 3 weeks and that is a long time!! I also finally had my first emotional breakdown yesterday since this whole crazy ordeal started. I asked Rubin to do something for me and then kinda lost it - I just hate feeling so helpless and not being able to do anything. I have to ask him to do everything - get me a drink out of the fridge, make my food and bring it to me on the couch, grab me some Tylenol and on top of that he is now expected to pick up the house and do everything else that I can't do anymore. I just hate having to rely on someone else so much and hate putting the extra responsibilities on him. Hopefully we will settle into a routine over time and with the boys gone the house should stay fairly clean once we get it that way. I knew it wouldn't be easy and I guess I'm just starting to feel the frustration. Please continue to pray for us as we continue on this long road.

Blessed

I just wanted to update and let everyone know that things are going fine so far. I know everyone is still asking how I'm feeling etc., and want to let everyone know that I actually feel completely fine. I have had absolutely no pain or discomfort at all, but that doesn't really mean anything. I felt completely fine the day I started bleeding, and still felt fine while bleeding. There is just no warning sign - I can be completely fine one minute and then start bleeding the next, so it is just the fear of the unknown.
To answer several more questions:
Yes, my mom is still taking the kids back home with her this weekend. There is absolutely no way that I can be left here to watch the kids by myself. If it was just Brayden then maybe, but with a 2 year old it is impossible.
Yes, this is our last baby. I had really wanted one more, although Rubin was completely against it (which doesn't mean much....I'm convinced I would have eventually gotten my way :)). After hemmoraging with Cameron and now this, I have decided that there is no way I can put myself or my family through this situation again, so I will have my tubes tied during my c-section. Maybe we can adopt someday.... ;)
Work is being very flexible and we are currently trying to come up with a plan for me to work from home so that I don't have to go on disability for quite as long since it is only 50% pay. This will be a huge blessing for us, and it's not like I have anything better to do while laying here!!
For those who have asked what they can do for us - this week we are fine because my mom is still here so she is feeding me :) After she goes home next week with the boys, visits, food, anything would be welcome. I will be laying here by myself day after day while Rubin is working, and meals are limited to me grabbing something out of the fridge and maybe using the microwave for a few seconds. If it requires standing for longer than that, I'm not allowed to do it, so my meal options will be pretty limited fora while.
I think that answers most of the questions from people but feel free to ask if you want to know anything else :)
I also want to take a few minutes to thank my family for how amazing they have been. My mom just took off and flew up here on a minutes notice, and Rubin's family has been awesome with helping out and stopping by. I also have gotten several pair of VS Pink pants, since I was wearing my absolute favorite pair on Thursday and had to throw them away (and I don't just go by myself $50 sweatpants on a regular basis so these were kind of a prized possession!). I am truly blessed and feel very loved and cared for. I also wanted to quickly mention that the nurses at the hospital were A-MA-ZING. They all genuinely seemed to care about how I was doing and would call or stop by on their days off just to check on me. They were all super!!

Well I have been home for almost a day now, and although I was a little nervous about leaving the hospital, I have to say I'm very thankful to be here. I was able to sleep in my own comfy bed last night, spend time with my husband, mom and kids, watch TV, and sit on my own couch. I just sat outside on the patio for a couple of hours and watched the boys play in the pool and sprinkler (and enjoyed a little sun!). I know everyone is worried about me following orders to stay put, and I completely understand why you all are. I know that I can be a "little" stubborn at times :) But I also know that this is what I have to do and I will do anything I'm told to keep this baby safe and healthy, so I'm listening. It's not easy - there are definitely more temptations to get up while at home and I keep seeing things I need to pick up or throw away etc, but I'm trying to just let it go and relax. I feel like a complete lazy bum - it's so weird that a week ago I felt guilty that I haven't really been exercising, and now I'm not even allowed to stand up for more than 10 minutes a day.
Today I told Brayden that he would be going to Nana's house for a couple of weeks, and was a little nervous that he would be sad to leave me and wonder why I wasn't coming, but we just told him it was his summer vacation since we can't all go on one now. He will get to go to my mom's daycare which has a "summer camp" type program and he is soooo excited about it. He said "I get to go on vacation for 2 whole weeks without my parents? Wow, most kids probably don't get to do that." Hopefully he handles it well while he's down there - I'm sure they'll keep him busy enough!!!
I can't express again how thankful we are for all of the prayers and well wishes from everyone. I know I haven't responded to you all, but I have read every message and we are very appreciative of everything.

Home!

Well I just talked to the doctor and they are going to let me go home. Everyone seems to be a little nervous still (including nurses and doctors), but she said that she feels comfortable that I live so close and can get here quickly if anything happens. She said now is the time to try and see how it goes and see if I do okay at home. I am not allowed to leave the house other than to come to dr appointments and can't stand longer than it takes to take a shower, but they will allow me to go upstairs at the end of the day to go to bed so at least I don't have to sleep on the couch. It is still going to be a very long and boring summer, but hopefully I will be more comfortable at home. Chances are I may end up in and out of the hospital a few more times over the next couple of months, but hopefully things remain stable enough that it won't be too crazy.
Thank you all for the kind words, thoughts, prayers, visits, and junk food (the nurses are constantly commenting on my candy stash). From this point on, I guess no news is good news!! I will update as things change!

25 Weeks!

I am 25 weeks along today - thankful for every week that passes :)
I just had my ultrasound and they no longer think I have vasa previa. There are veins there, but they appear to be over to the right and not covering the cervix. I still have the placenta previa and partial abruption, so I am still considered high risk for bleeding again. They are considering sending me home on strict bed rest. My OB should be stopping by my room at some point this afternoon to talk to me about it and we will go from there. She mentioned this morning that if I go home I should expect to probably be back and forth to the hospital a few more times throughout the pregnancy. I will update everyone after I talk to her, but either way it is great news that there is no vasa previa!