Home again

Rubin is home again...hopefully this time for good. I don't know how much more our poor family can handle. I don't know how much I can handle. I'm exhausted. I need my husband. Our boys need their daddy. Rubin needs to feel normal. He was first diagnosed with Crohn's on November 18, and since then I think he has been in the hospital about 15 times, and I'm not exaggerating. We haven't spent any holidays together since then. We haven't been able to spend time with Cameron and do things as a family. We haven't been able to take Brayden places or do things with him. We haven't been able to spend time together as a couple. Since I've gone back to work I feel like I've been pulled in too many directions and have tried my best to stay strong and be superwoman but it's starting to wear on me. We need a break. Please, please, please be over.